Friday
Sometimes Friday comes too soon. Hard to believe. But sometimes
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September 29, 2006
September 24, 2006
Catchup
Life in the last two weeks or so has been peppered with ups and downs. I have returned to work after the summer holiday with a renewed focus and energy. With new routines and plans in place and underway, the start of a new academic year always holds such possibilities. The lovely Nik continues to be as lovely as ever, if not more so, putting up with a lot of stress from me of late, smiling, listening and then handing over the coffee or other calming beverage. The contented cats continue to ignore the ever growing snails who chomp their way through every piece of cucumber with great gusto.
Two people arrived back after periods of absence from my day to day last week. Entirely separate from each other, but both from a time when things were very different for me. For the first, I find it odd how someone can betray a trust so entirely and then just think that a few years under the bridge and all will be forgotten. No doubt that person is thinking that I should be over it by now. It is not a case of that. I am over it, I am a far better person for it. It is not about forgiveness of forgetting. It is now about the fact that I do not care any more. For the guilty parties, I just dont care any more. I do not need to forgive or forget because I just do not care. Their actions hurt me so deeply that I was changed as a consequence, they claim now to have met someone just like me? They would not know me , quite simply, you do not know who I am at all. So, feel free to drop me a mail every now and again, let me know how you are getting on, for I would be interested but have no expectations or assumptions about me whatsoever.
For the second person, those who spread lies get found out, plain and simple. It becomes increasingly difficult to remember what you have said and paths always lead back to you. I know what you have said and done and after all this time, all these years it is all coming back to you. I do not wish anyone any ill, but I do hope that the truth will out in this case. It will not be me that does it, as I am not like that, but I believe that the real facts and the real person will show this time. I know I sound bitter, I am not. I pity people who think that they can go through their lives so blind. I am happy with who I am and what I have. I do not need to dwell on the past to make myself feel better about the future and I do not need to belittle others to feel better about myself.
Just a final thought for the day's entry for the lovely Richard Hammond. I am surprised and heartened by the reaction to his awful accident. The idea to set up the page for donations to the Yorkshire Air Ambulance I think is an exceptional one. I think we always assume that these television programmes make things seem far more dangerous than they are, but with poor Steve Irwin and now Richard Hammond, it makes you realise what we are watching is real. -Really, do not try this at home-
Fingers crossed for a good recovery.