Countdown
So the countdown begins. At most it will be ten days from now that our baby starts on her difficult transition into the outside world. Then again, it could be any minute now.
Ten days.
It seems like so little time since we were overjoyed with the positive test and yet, here we are with just ten days (at most) to go before our little girl makes her entrance. I have enjoyed my pregnancy so much. It has not been without complication - extreme morning, afternoon, evening and middle of the night sickness and Gestational Diabetes and all the fun that brings for example. But I have enjoyed every minute of it. I don't think I have ever felt so content as I have for the last nine months. I have been concerned over the last few weeks as to just how much I will miss being pregnant, it has worried me that it will overshadow what comes next. However, at the weekend there was a shift in my mind somehow and now I know that I am ready to meet her and to embrace everything that this next stage in our lives holds. Of course I will miss her being in there, the secrets that we share in the middle of the night, how she is with me wherever I go, but she will be here and I can't wait for that.
What has amazed me most through all of this is just how much I can love someone I have not yet met. From the second I knew she was there, I have loved her and worried about her in equal measure. I feel waves of love for her that start at my toes and sweep over me, the strength of it amazing me every time. I am obviously terrified at the prospect of giving birth as any first time mum would be, but I know that at the end of it, the reward will be so worth it. I just hope and pray that all goes well, that she is healthy and not unduly affected by my Diabetes.
So. Ten days and counting. I can't wait.
